Discouraged

Feeling discouraged today. About my work, my home, my family... Just feeling off-balance and not knowing how to make it better.

I'll write more soon. For now, I just wanted to write a few lines to honor and acknowledge this new feeling of not knowing that I'm sitting with right now. The old patterns of my life and way of being are simply not working any longer.

So, I feel myself sitting quietly in beginner's mind, trying to learn what it is this moment has to teach me. Trying to learn to be more fully present to my life.

Sometimes discouragement and doubt are the best gifts, the best teachers.

I'm trying to welcome them in, listen as they whisper to my heart without trying to wriggle away from the discomfort before I learn this moment's secrets.