Tuesday, November 14, 2006

I'm back...

And I'll tell you the truth.

I feel like I've returned from a different planet.

From a world of howling coyotes and labyrinths and warrior initiation and Inanna and huge red and orange rocks and hearing my powerful voice.

And now back to a world of laundry and kids and driving to and from school and missed parent/teacher conferences and homework and primary programs and dishes.

Re-entry has been more difficult than I'd like to admit. Integrating the marvelous things I learned about myself last week with my life, that is set up to allow me to shrink and stay small and comfortable, has been painful. And interesting.

It has been quite a study in who I am and how I've looked at myself for so many years and how disparate the two are.

So, I'm moving on with great faith, great love, great doubt and GREAT determination.

I'll probably be processing a great deal here. Or on my other blog.

I hope it proves to be worthwhile for others, rather than just me.


Anonymous said...

I have found that when I have a great growing experience that it is a mixed blessing. I go and do something that tells me to be great and big. I feel the world pulling me into the large goals that it has for me.

And then when I get back, I feel the limits of family and life much more keenly. I don't see the blessings they are, I just feel them holding me back from what I could be.

But there are also times when I go somewhere and grow spiritually, and come back and love my family even more. I can't get enough of them, and I want to do all that I can to grow with them, rather than all by myself.

Is any of this similar to you?

Anonymous said...

Welcome back. Get some rest girl-- take care, many thoughts!!